w19 2020

This page was in some ways harder to draw than last weeks’ page. From the start, I had a clearer idea of what I would draw and how it was supposed to look, but I enjoyed the process a lot less and also look at the final result differently. I noticed while drawing this that I started to compare myself to others; not specific artists but rather against my expectation of “professional, good market quality artwork”. And as soon as my mental focus wandered from the value the artwork has for myself to the value the artwork might have for others, my enjoyment of the process lessened. It’s quite challenging for me to not think this way though since all professional work rarely held any personal value and was always primarily created based on the value determined by and for others.